Lamentations IX

all i wanna do
is simply wrap you with my love
but everytime
a beam of chance peeps
mountain ranges grow between
always there to cover
always there for me to get over

how do i get close to you, moreso stay?
how do i lose myself in you, yet never lose my way?
how do i get through you when sands of time won't let me stay?

in this ever replaying song
i've been hurting all along
too painful in details to utter
i choose not to even remember

like a bad book
i want this story back to its gloomy shelf
and march back to my old unfeeling self

can time rewrite its every sad line?
can these changes retain the silent joys in it i bind?
would fate this time be a little kind?

resentments...
regrets...
they're not ---
just keyed-in lamentations interwoven in this leaf to ease the pain -
just silent thoughts outpouring in disdain...